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I once again have no excuse. But hey, I'm updating now, so that totally counts and nullifies my lack of excuse for updating, right? Right.

So how's it kicking with you guys? Life online good? Excellent.

Alright, enough small talk. Time for the mass fill in of my past few weeks.

The brief end: I tried smoking, resumed improv, cut again, found God again, almost lost my job, came to terms with almost losing said job, start school for fall semester on Tuesday, and am having a friend from the west coast come in next week for a day.

Oh yeah, try to make sense of that. But that's why you have me here, dear Cyberland Readers. So that I can break it down for you. You know you are dying to hear about all of it.

Let's start with smoking. I always said I would never try the stuff, cause it's bad for you and expensive, and a nasty habit. But the truth is, I was curious. And I wanted to get carded. I mean, I'm 20 years old and have never done anything really rebellious, dangerous, or that warrents getting carded. I'm about as exciting as a box of Cracker Jacks without a prize in that respect. So I went to 7 - 11 with my sister, bought a lighter and a peach cigar, and smoked it on the deck.

It was great. I have no shame in admiting that I enjoyed basically every minute of it. Afterwards, my mom threatened to take my lighter, told me I'm never allowed to smoke again while I'm living at home, and told me I needed a shower.

I have no regrets, and I fully plan on doing it again. Yeah, there are health risks. Yeah, it's a bad habit. But I like it, and I think I can get away with being a casual smoker, at least for a while. You only live once, and I'm tired of being scared to do things because of what they may do to me 50 years down the road. And hey, at least it's not pot, cause I know people who do that, and that's one thing I won't do. I have standards.

Next on the agenda: improv.

Improv is off to a great start after a month long hiatus. We are all still funny, it is still fun, and now we're getting my sister into it, which is great. She's a natural, she just doesn't know it yet. :D That's really all there is to say about that one. Hopefully we'll have a competition soon, cause those are brilliant.

Cutting was bad. That's all there is to say about that. Let's move on...

I found God again. I started reading my Bible and things finally feel relevant. It's one of those things of belief. I'm very much a head person (i.e. my head is very powerful and I over think things), so it's hard for me to believe just what my heart or soul tells me.

But you know what? I'm doing it. It may be the size of a frickin mustard seed, but I'm going to move mountains with it, even if I don't know how or when or why. I feel very uplifted right now, and I love it. I've had a chronic headache for the past two weeks or more, and it's gone now. It's a good thing.

It's a very good thing.

So, the job thing.

It's a long story and I don't feel like going into great detail, but basically my drawer was short $25 the other day due to the fact that a fellow manager and I couldn't figure out an incident with a gift card. My boss called me yesterday and basically told me that if corporate couldn't figure out what had happened, one or both of us (the other manager and I) would lose our jobs.

So yeah. I've never been fired before, and the idea scared the hell out of me, so I cried when I got off the phone. After making sure that my parents weren't going to be disappointed in me if I was fired (they are awesome, let me tell you), and after figuring out a positive plan for the worst case scenario, I felt better about it.

Today, I went to work and fully expected to be asked to leave. Instead, I found out that my boss had found out yesterday that both of our jobs were secure. Why he didn't bother to tell me yesterday is a mystery, but I'm still employed, so I'm not going to worry about it. Still, the company is bothering me a little.

I'm going to give it until the end of the year, and then decide how I feel. End of story.

School starts Tuesday. I can not wait. This summer felt so long, and I've been working so much. I need something to break it up, and this is it. Plus, since I changed my major, my classes are going to be a lot more fun than before.

It all brings me one step closer to teaching your children. That's right. Your children are going to learn English from me. Are you scared yed?

And finally, my friend from Seattle, GizmonicGirl92, is passing through Denver this week! There's a chance (a pretty good chance, actually) that I'm going to get to see her on Wedensday! She's my friend I met on this forum (www.forrestcrow.proboards.com ). We have a lot in common, and she's a lot of fun to talk to. I have yet to meet her face-to-face, though, so I'm excited and a little nervous. It should be fun, though.

And yes, both our moms will be there. :D

Ok, Cyberland Readers, that's enough for now. I'm tired and work basically open to close tomorrow. Until the next go,

~Birdgirl90