Wednesday, March 21, 2012

My Head is Spinning.

The past few days have seen actually some turn around.  No, I'm not completely 100% back to my standard of normal Meaghan behavior (whatever that may be) but it appears I can function again.

I finally got my entry into the yarn contest at Lionbrand.  It's my heart hat, but modified for spring:

Lovely, isn't it?

My sister wearing it.
I'm rather happy with how it turned out.  It's both warm and durable, and pretty to boot.

Then I started applying for four year school.

After much debate, stress, worry, and anxiety, I realized I miss being outside.  I miss working with nature.  So I'm applying to local four year schools to get a Bachelor's degree in Environmental Science, or in English with a Minor in Environmental Science.  Or something.  Religious Studies interests me too.  And to be honest, I'm burned out with the writing stuff.

Today, I got my graduation stuff for the spring.  Cap, gown, announcements, Phi Theta Kappa stole, the whole nine yards.  It's really happening, readers.  I'm honest to goodness graduating in less than two months with my Associates in Creative Writing.  How did that happen???

And to top it off, my boyfriend fell off the map for a few days.  When he finally surfaced again, I discovered how much stress he's going through.  Change is a big thing.  So I'm doing the only thing I can think of.

I'm knitting him a log cabin blanket.

And that's what's going on in my world.  It has been a whirlwind of a few days.  I'm freaking exhausted.

(I need to knit some more socks.)


Saturday, March 17, 2012

Blogging from the Fitness Room...

...because we still don't have internet at home.  Which is fine.  I've been a lot more productive the past three months with things like knitting, designing, and, well actually I guess that's about it.

Homework is a joke.  I hate saying that.  But it's so true.  I honestly can not bring myself to do it.  I hate it.  I'm ready to be done.

Katie got a job.  She loves it.  Today is her first day, and she's currently working.  (She worked a split shift, so that's how I know she loves it.)  I worked today too, greeting people at the front of the store for six hours.  Fun times.  I had a purple skein of sock yarn for Trevor's socks in my pocket with the needles sticking out.  My mom was incredulous, but after the week I've had, I find the yarn to be comforting.

Any yarn and candles at this point are comforting.  I can't unwind without one or both. 

Starting a new diet plan.  It's not technically a diet.  It's a food journal.  I'm so tired of being tired, overweight, and at a risk for all sorts of heath problems.  By writing down what I eat, maybe I can kill my love hate relationship with food for the final time.  It's time for it to stop.

No more binge eating, no more stress eating, no more sad eating.  No more eating alone, and no more eating in front of the TV.

Instead, pick up those needles and knit.  Aggressively. :)  I can do that.

I guess I could write, too, but school has nearly killed my love and passion for it.

And that's the update from the life of Birdie.  Enjoy your weekend, dear readers.


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

A Lack of Road Signs

I feel like I'm riding along through an unmarked area.  There are no road signs telling me which way to go.  Anyway I go will be fine, but each will lead me to a different place.  Those places are unknown.


My sister just got accepted to the four year school of her choice for the fall.  I am so very, very happy for her.  She has had her heart set on it for the past few months.  It is incredible.  She's so excited.  I haven't seen her this excited for anything in a very, very long time.

I got back from visiting my boyfriend in Boulder.  It was the best thing all semester.  We stayed in a hotel, ate delivery, went to the Pearl Street Mall, visited a yarn store, talked, watched movies, etc.  It was incredible being so close.  When I left, we both cried, me more than him.  I felt like Rose from Dr. Who in the Doomsday episode.  All I wanted was to go back.

And thus the cross roads.

I have been told that if I go to a four year school, I will be more employable.  But my major would probably be English.  And honestly, I'm completely neutral about it.  I'm neither excited nor unexcited about the prospect of going to school for a few more years.  It's more "Ehhh."

If I get a full time job, I can save, live at home, get a car, and then work on moving out.  I can move in with my boyfriend or move near him to give both of us a support structure and routine.  I like this idea, but I'm not ready to work full time at the moment.

So what I think I'll do is keep the job on the weekends that I currently have.  I'll spend as much time over the summer as I can with the people I care about.  And then come July or August I'll decide what to do.

Maybe I'll have some road signs by then.


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Title-less in Colorado

Hello, dear readers.

I have no idea what to title this blog today.  I think it's the fact that it's a) a Wed, b) gloomy outside, and c) I'm about to go out of town this weekend to see my boyfriend for the first time in over a month.

This is the longest we've been apart since we started dating almost a year ago.  Isn't that crazy?  Can'twaitcan'twaitcan'twait....

Totally swamped with homework.  Spring break is approaching and I'm more behind than I anticipated being.  Which really isn't that far behind.  It just feels behind for me.  But I'll get ahead.

I've been researching how to start my own online business.  It's a lot of work.  I want to have a site where I can sell my knitted items and creations to thos who are interested.  Everything on my site will be designed by me so that I can get my knits some publicity and so that I don't have to deal with potentially sticky lawsuits.  It's a fine dream, isn't it?

No idea how it's going to come about.  But it feels a lot more attainable than the yarn shop at the moment.  (Still not giving up on that one, either.)  I'll have to work full time.  Totally worth it though.

For now it's still half baked, though.  My designing feels like it's getting better.  Which is good.

(And now I know why I collect paint chips - to help with creation.)

It's a gloomy day.  Yesterday was beautiful - nearly 70 degrees, flip flops and iced tea galore.  Not so much today.  Today I really just want to curl up in bed again. Bleh.

And that has been your update for the day, dear readers.  I hope you're enjoying your day, whatever it may bring.


Monday, March 5, 2012

No Knitting

For three days, I was unable to knit.  Everytime I thought about picking up the needles, I felt sick to my stomach.  Never had that happen before.

My cardigan?  Nope.  The red shawl for my neighbor? Nope.  The stuffed TARDIS for my friend? Nope.

For three days.  Three days!

But I'm back to it now.  The red shawl is on the needles and happily moving along, and not a moment too soon.

Cause I found out today that my friend Dorothy (the one who got me to meet my beau last spring) is gonna be a grandma!  Her daughter is my age and pregnant.

So I need to learn how to make baby blankets. :)  So excited.

Alright, class.

Enjoy your day dear readers.


Thursday, March 1, 2012

Creativity Time

I was going to create a shawl.  It would be triangular and wrap around like a hug, you know?

But then I looked at the amount of yarn in my possession of the color scheme I want.  I have a huge stash, but I only have four partial balls of the colors I desire.  That's not enough for a shawl.

So now it's morphing into a scarf. 

I'm calling it "Rocky Mountain High" after the John Denver song because the color scheme is based on the Colorado landscape in late winter.  I have a goldenrod yellow, a bonemeal beige, a chocolate brown, and a dusty blue.  It's going to be beautiful.

I hope.

We'll see.