Thursday, December 31, 2009

Last Blog of 2009

And so this is it. There is approximately 1 hour and 45 minutes left of 2009. Therefore, I feel it is only fair to do a final blog entry for the year 2009.

I am so glad this year is almost over. Seriously. It was a very fast moving year, and I barely remember it because I was sick half the time and crazy ass busy the rest of it. It's like it's a year that's fuzzy around the edges, and I'm pretty sure that it's okay that it all blurred.

So what am I going to do with 2010? Well, I would make a ton of resolutions (lose weight, stop damaging my hair, cut out chocolate and sweets, etc.), but the truth is that I never keep them. I, like most of the American population as a whole, do amazingly well at keeping my resolutions for about the first week of January. After that, it kind of all goes to hell, and I end up saying that I'll do my stupid resolutions the next year. As you can see, that kind of thing just ends up being a depressing cycle that bums me out, like a really annoying record on repeat.

But I would like 2010 to be my year. I'm not going to make any resolutions. Instead, I'm going to just strive towards making 2010 a year that doesn't blur around the edges. I want to take charge of my life before it's too late. I don't want to be one of those people who look back bitter because they feel they wasted the years of their youth. I want to take my life by the horns and however else the saying goes.

I want to get something pierced, like my cartilidge or my nose. We will see how that goes.

Anyway, I hope that all of you, dear Cyberland readers, have a wonderful new year. Go out and do something ridiculous, and make your year something great. And have fun tonight, for what little is left of it.

And now I leave you to resume my MST3K marathon on youtube. See you next year.

aka Meaghan

And that is my last blog

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Why Hate the Fruit Cake?

Seriously. Everyone seems to be so against the holiday tradition known as fruit cake, and it has honestly never made much sense to me. Yes, it is a rather heavy cake. And yes, it is full of candied fruits and nuts including but certainly not limited to the unidentified green...things. And yes, it does sometimes provide an interesting aftertaste that may or may not be to your liking.

But those things aside, it's really not as bad as it's made out to be. In fact, I find fruit cake to be rather good and don't like the idea of not having it for Christmas. Here are some reasons why I like fruit cake:

1. Flavor Meets Texture

I like the way fruit cake tastes. But even more than that, I like the texture of it. Yes, it is very heavy - hence why you are supposed to only eat small pieces at a time. Heaviness aside, however, the cake has a really interesting texture. You can feel the nuts and candied fruit, but if you really dig far enough, you can tell that the cake batter itself has the texture much like a very firm bread pudding. That's not a very good way to describe it, but it's the only one I can think of right now. Anyway, it's good.

2. Tradition

My dad and I have this tradition where we always get a fruit cake. My mom and little sister don't like fruit cake, so it's just me and dad eating it. It's kinda like when I was younger and dad and I would watch TV and binge on my Halloween candy after the others had gone to bed. It was our way of connecting. Same with the fruit cake: we both eat slices together and discuss the cake and whatever else may be going on at the time. It's nice and routine and ours.

3. The Green Things

I am probably the only person I know who gets a kick out of eating the green cherries on the fruit cake. At least, I think they're cherries. I don't know why I get so amused eating them, but it's a big deal to me for some strange reason. I guess it's how my brain is programed...

So there you have it, my reasons for liking fruit cake. I know that a lot of people still hate it even after reading this, but if you have read this, please, try to give fruit cake a chance. It has a lot of good points and it's a holiday thing.

But if you still don't like it, I understand.

Until the next time, Cyberland.


Saturday, December 19, 2009

Why am I doing this blog thing again...?

I think it started out as a way to get my writing published in some form or another. Then it morphed into a way of reminding myself that I actually do have a life outside of work and family. And then it became a way of proving to myself that I really am a procrastinator at heart. I mean, the last time I updated this thing was back in October and here we are, the end of December. *sigh*

Anywhosit -

Today I am blogging because I have the jitters. No, it's not from an overabundance of caffiene. And no, it's also not because I've been watching a marathon of Star Trek and MST3K since November. (Although, that may be contributing, I don't know..) It's because of a social situation that I am about to be subjected to that I am jittery.

It's the company Christmas party.

I know, I know, it's really not a big deal. It's fun, actually. And I work well with everyone (at least, I think I do for the most part) and I like everyone I work with and I really do enjoy them all. But social situations like this make me so nervous for no apparent reason. I know it's a safe environment, and no one is out to get me, but I'm so afraid of doing something wrong.

Maybe it's just because I'm 19 and I still sometimes feel a little uncomfortable in my own skin, like a woolen sweater that's just a bit too hot and itchy. Or maybe it's because I'm so used to being the quiet shy girl that I haven't gotten my subconcious to understand that I am beyond that. I really don't know.

Maybe I'm afraid I'm the only one not bringing a guest. : (

Anyway, I'll survive. And I'll do it with dignity and my head up high. Or, at least however much dignity I can find. Aw, who am I kidding? Dignity is soo over rated!

On a lighter note, I have been watching an insane amount of MST3K. Let me emphasize INSANE here for a moment. It's gotten to the point where I am wondering what my life was like before Joel and the Bots and how I ever managed through finals without them. Cause really, that's what it started as. My improv group that I play with was horrified that I had no idea of what MST3K was ( as it turns out, I did have memories of a talking gumball machine watching movies - apparently dad watched it when I was little) and so I was encouraged to youtube it.

It is freaking amazing.

No. Seriously. If you have not seen it, go watch it now. Really. I'll wait. If anything, watch for the host segements. And make sure you watch the ones with Joel in them - he's freaking adorable; it's like the Bots are his kids or something.

So the week of finals I was stressed out anyway, so instead of studying, I started watching MST3K. Yes, I said it, and I would say it again. I HAVE NO REGRETS! Haha, okay that was a little melodramatic, but whatever. Anyway, it has sucked me in. Which is good, cause these sort of things always seem to happen when my life is at a time of utter monotony or stress; they give me something else to focus on for a while besides my own mundane routines.

So naturally, my brain is a little loopy now. Not that I really care, but I'm just saying... Come to think of it, I don't actually remember a time when my brain wasn't loopy. Such is the life I suppose.

Anyway, I have a cake I have to go frost for this thing tonight. I do believe this is the longest blog I've done in a very, VERY long time. If you made it this far, I hope you enjoyed it (or at least found it fascinating), and if you haven't, well, too bad.

I'm gonna try to break the spell of procrastination. I mean it this time - college is making me focus more. Sorta. Kinda. Maybe?

Later Cyberland!