Friday, October 29, 2010

It's the Weekend!!

Aka, happy post time.

Oh, this week.  Where shall we even begin?  It was long.  I'll say that much.  Very long. 

I've been looking forward to the weekend (mainly tomorrow and Sunday) that it's made the week snail along.  But hey! It's Friday!

(Insert Cure song here, if you so desire.)

I think on a whole it was a pretty decent week.  We're on poetry now in writing class which is kind of fun.  I, being a perfectionist who over thinks most things, am making the assignments harder than they need to be, but I'm pretty sure that if I can shut up my inner critic (seriously, critic, no one cares what you think, ok?), it'll be easier for me.

And more enjoyable.

I still have that massive history paper due in three weeks.  I'm trying really hard not to think about it too much, but you know how that goes.  I may tackle it today or tomorrow.  Maybe Sunday, I don't know.

Music class is, well, music class.  I kinda sleep through it, to be honest.  That's not a bad thing - the stuff that interests me really does grab me - but it's probably not a good thing, either.

Oh! I voted this week.  That's right, peeps.  I vote.

As a woman, as a citizen of the United States, and as a college student, I take that responsibility fairly seriously.  I vote via mail in, so I can actually sit and read the little blue book of issues and know what I'm voting for.  I also watch debates and try to make an educated vote, not along party lines.

The one thing that always annoys me about elections, though, is the pro-life/pro-choice issue.  Why is this even an issue, guys?  Why are we making decisions for people we've never met before?  Leave abortion legal.  You don't ever have to get one, I don't ever have to get one, but that way it's always available.  Everyone has different circumstances; we have no right to intrude on something that's between the woman, her doctor, and her God.

To me, making it a government issue is like saying that the men in Congress know better than the women actually getting the procedure done.  Fuck off, government, ok?  We fought hard for our rights.  Same with gay marriage.  You don't support it?  Ok, so don't get one.  But shouldn't love (no matter what kind of love) be allowed to be legal? 

Frankly, the God I believe in loves everyone the same, understands what circumstances we all come from, and doesn't condemn us for it.  I mean, if the same God can love me even though I am a recovering self-harmer, then can't He love the woman who had the abortion not because she didn't love her unborn child but because she had no other choice or the man who can't change who he loves?  Isn't that what Grace and Love and everything else the Bible teaches about?  I don't understand sometimes.

Sorry, guys, this election has me worked up.  I try not to subject you to my views, but sometimes it can't be helped.  Moving on...

So tomorrow I'm going to a midnight showing of the Rocky Horror Picture Show.  I am so thrilled.  I'm making a list of all the things that I need to bring: toast, water guns, newspapers, etc.  I'm not dressing in costume cause it's my first time, so instead I'm pulling out all the goth stuff I have from high school.  It's going to be so exciting!  My friend Jen is pretty pumped too.

Then I'll spend the night with her, go to church with her in the morning (I'm trying a church out, we'll see how it goes...), and then come home and pass out Halloween candy.

Halloween is such a fun holiday.  I love it.  =D


So I think I've rambled enough on here.  Onwards to some homework of some sort, and beyond!


Tuesday, October 26, 2010


Whaddya know?  It's Tuesday.

I'm at the library.  That's right, guys, the public library in my good ol' neck of the woods here.  I just modified some things for writing class and got them turned in.  Terribly exciting, I know. 

It was an awesome day, but I am so tired right now that I can barely focus.  I think I may leave the library early and go home.  I mean, I like being independent and all that, but I am so tired.  I used all my enegery earlier.

It was beautiful outside today.  The sky was so blue, it was seriously intense.  A lot of wind though.  It's been nice this fall.  Normally, we have snow already.  Now I'm not a Colorado native, but over the past five years I've become accustomed to the weather patterns here.  This year we actually had a prolonged fall like where I'm from.  It was nice.

But now I think I may be ready for snow.  I mean, I feel incredibly restless.  I've been unable to sit still for the past few days, and I really do believe that the weather has something to do with it.  So really, it needs to snow already.  Or something.

School is going well.  I got my midterm back from history class.  I got a 93 on it!  I'm pretty happy.  And especially considering that I had strep throat and a sinus infection.  Score.

I'm over that stuff, btw.  I promise, you won't catch it through your monitor.

Child and dog sitting this weekend was interesting.  I didn't get a lot of sleep, but that's to be expected, I think.  It was fun. 

Oh man, I've already talked about that, haven't I...I tell ya, I think I'm losing my mind.

Alright, well, I need to go.  4 days to Rocky Horror Picture Show!!


Saturday, October 23, 2010

I'm Alive!


I finally got over my step throat and sinus infection combo.  At least, I finished the meds yesterday.  I still have a slightly sore throat, but I'm also house/child/dog sitting right now and I'm allergic, so I don't know if  it's from that or not.

I made it throught midterms.  I have no idea how I did on the one in History, but I almost aced my music one.  I almost feel bad because I did not study.  Eh, what're ya going to do?

As I blog, I'm at my neighbors.  It's been a pretty fun weekend so far, watching her almost six years old son and their dog, but I gotta say, I'm wiped.  It has reminded me that I really am not ready for my own children.  Not yet.

I carved a pumpkin for the first time in, geez, I don't know how long.  It actually turned out pretty well.  I'm a little proud of it.  He carved one too; lot's of fun. 

So, next weekend is Halloween weekend.  I'm really looking forward to it.  The main reason is that my friend Jen and I (and probably Mel and maybe some others) are going to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show at midnight next Saturday.  It's something I've wanted to do for a while, and I'm so thrilled that this is the year we're going.  It's going to be great! =D

Um, that's really all I can think of right now.  I'm a little behind on a history paper, but I'm on track with everything else.  We're starting poetry in writing on Tuesday, so that's kind of exciting.  So yeah.

Ok, well, until we meet again, dear readers,


Tuesday, October 19, 2010


I have a sinus infection and strep throat, dear cyberland readers.  I got diagnosed yesterday.  The Z-pack is my friend right now, it seems.

The really unfortunate thing is that I have midterms today.  I really would like to just stay home.  I have snot running down my throat, my sinus cavities are sore, my head is throbbing, and my throat feels like something died in it.  Not fun.

I'm trying to decide if I should email the professors I don't have midterms in and tell them I'm out sick, and then just go to school to take my test.  Otherwise, I'll go put a full day in and sleep between classes.

I've been on stuff for almost 24 hours and I've already exposed everyone to it (I started feeling sick last Thursday), so I don't think that really matters.

I do know that I will take the History midterm because, frankly, his make up test frightens me.

Alright, I'm leaving again.  Have a wonderful Tuesday.


Saturday, October 16, 2010

Oh Look, It's Another Entry.

Sorry if I sound mildly emo or something.  Frankly, I'm exhausted.  I really am.  I have this stupid ass cold due to midterms (I think I spoke about it in a previous entry, but I can't remember right now) and I've been doing homework for the majority of my day.

Well, except for the part where I wasn't.  But it's all good.


I'm blogging now because - wait.  I don't know why.  I had a reason, but I seem to have forgotten it.  Umm.  In that case, I'm blogging to say hi.

Ok, this is a sign that I need to get some sleep.  I'll write again when I'm actually coherent. (I am coherent some of the time, right?  I never know anymore...)


I Annoy Myself.

It's true.  I think everyone can relate, too.  We all have things that not only make the people around us wonder but that also drive ourselves nuts.

I've got a boatload I'm about to dump on you guys.

First of all, when I get stressed or anxious, I start laughing hysterically.  It totally does not matter what's going on around me; anything can set me off.  Then I can't stop.  Sometimes I laugh until I'm in tears and then start crying in ernest.  It's not ok with me.

Here's an example for you from last week:

Writing class is my last class of the day.  I'm usually worn out anyway before I get to it.  Add to it the fact that last week I was pretty sure I did the assignment entirely wrong and the fact that I think I might like this guy in class (yay - btw, that's sarcasm, in case you didn't know...).  My instructor reads our writing outloud.  I know it's good exposure, but it still scares the heck out of me.  I hate having attention called on me.  I had had my mid-term meltdown the night before and was still slightly recovering from that.  So my instructor reads my "wrong" assignment outloud.  I don't even know how everyone reacted because I couldn't look anyone in the eye.  It was one of those weeks.  So then we do this thing with "sensational headlines".  I started laughing and could not stop.  My friend who sits next to me asked me if I was ok.  I'm pretty sure people were staring at me. 

 I hate it.  I hate it when I start and I can't stop.  It's so freaking embarrassing.  It gets better too.

That night we went to Wendy's for dinner after my sister tested for her Tae Kwon Do belt.  We were laughing about some toy she got in her kids meal.  I laughed so hard I started crying, and frankly, it wasn't even that funny.  It's like the whole day I could not stop. 

Again, it drives me nuts.  Way to scare off the male population, girl, way to go. Bleh.

Here's another thing that annoys the crap out of me:

I snort when I laugh.

Yeah, that's right.  I occasionally snort when I laugh.  Usually when it's dead quiet and I'm nervous laughing, too.  It's the worst.  My friends tease me about it from time to time.  It's awful.

Another one is how I sound on the phone.  I sound like a flippin four year old.  Come on people, I'm 20.  I should not sound like I'm a toddler.  Geeze.  It's like when people used to ask me when I was starting sophmore year of high school and I had to tell them that I actually graduated high school back in 2008. 


But if you think about it, I'm sure you guys have things that drive you nuts too.  So I'm pretty sure I'm in good company.  Right?

Anyway.  I don't know how I'm going to face class on Tuesday.  I thought about skipping the writing class and just going home after my history midterm, but I won't.  I'll go.  It may not end pretty, though.  Hopefully I can hold it together.

I wish we had a normal fall break like everyone else.  I could use it.  I have to say, though, this weekend is nice.  I like it.  I needed this weekend.

Until we meet again readers,


Thursday, October 14, 2010

Well, I Haven't Died...

Although if I did, it might make this post more interesting to you, the reader.  Let's face it: things are more popular when the actor/singer/writer/etc is deceased.  I'm pretty sure it has something to do with the culture we live in.  No one can appreciate things until they're gone, or so it seems. 

But don't worry readers.  I like breathing and living.  I'm not going to go stick my head in an oven like Plath or die of tuberculous like Keats.  I plan on being here for a very long time.  Which means I get to subject you to my writing. 



I am getting sick for a second time this semester.  Normally I only get sick once a semester, usually around this time.  I'm used to that.  It's like a familiar routine: get nasty sick around midterms, miss class on an excused absence to sleep (after the tests, of course.  Sick or not, I almost always make it for the tests...), and go back to class the following week.  Predictable like clockwork, entirely blamed on stress.

This semester is odd though, in oh so many ways.  I don't even feel like I can get into it and do it justice...

First of all, I got sick the second week of it.  And by sick, I mean sick.  It was one of those things where because of work and school, I waited until I could barely move to go to the doctor.  My ears were inflamed, my lungs full of crap that was aggravating my asthma, my sinuses and throat sore and dripping, and a low grade fever to boot.  Everything hurt.  I missed two days of work and one day of school.

So, I thought that that would be that.  I mean, I quit my job shortly afterwards and with only school to deal with, I've been one happy camper, so to speak.  I like being able to focus on my education and my recreational hobbies.  I like not having to get up at 4 am and being able to sleep until at least 7 again. 

And now I feel like shit.  I started feeling run down last night.  This morning I was alright.  By the time my history class came about, I felt the pressure starting to build in my sinuses and I was wondering if I was going to make it through.  I got a second wind in my writing class, and now I just feel wiped.  My ears are starting to itch and my throat has that gunky, sick feeling in it.

You know what I'm talking about.

I hope to goodness it's just a cold.  I really and truly do.  Those go away fast.  They are miserable, but they don't last as long as say...bronchitis.  Which I've battled with in the past and I have no desire to do it again.

I have more to write about, but it's going to be a busy night (my sister is testing for her second degree red belt in Tae Kwon Do) and as I said before, I'm wiped.  But I wanted to let you know that I was alive.  I'll try to update later this weekend.  It's on my list of things to do.


Friday, October 8, 2010

Know What's Frustrating?

The fact that I am possibly allergic to some of my facial products.  I've started this wonderful routine for both morning and night (brush teeth, wash face, moisturize, etc.) and I wake up this morning to more acne than I've had in a very long time.  Plus my face itches a bit.

Really?  It doesn't seem fair.  First of all, I thought I left acne behind the minute I left my teen years behind this summer.  Wrong.  It appears acne doesn't care how old you are as long as you have pores for it to make itself at home in.  Not fair. 

Second of all, I don't even wear foundation.  Seriously.  I have fairly good, even if it is slightly sensitive, skin.  It's naturally pale and even in tone.  All I wear is a slightly tinted moisturizer with an SPF in it and a little compact powder to prevent shine.  That's all. 

What I find the most odd, though, is that my face is acting this way AFTER I started my super sweet routine.  Before, I would fall asleep still wearing my make-up or wouldn't wash my face consistantly.  And yeah, I got zits and what not, but not like I have this morning. 

Maybe my face needs to get used to being washed consistently.  Or maybe I'm about to enter "that time".  Which would actually explain a lot, seeing as I feel the need to eat an insane amount of chocolate and salt right now.

Ok, so that was kind of my weird rant this morning.  I can't believe semester is half over.  I'm going to a classical concert tonight for one of my classes, and I have mid-terms next week and the week after.  I also have a History paper I need to get done.  Not to mention the writing for Creative Writing.

 Which reminds me, I need to go to advising and get my major emphasis official down this week.

Alright, it's Friday.  I'll let you people get on with whatever it is you do on Friday.  I'm looking forward to an invigorating day of writing, homework, and running around like a chicken with my head cut off.

Until the next blog,


Sunday, October 3, 2010

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday...

Well, guys and gals, I need to apologize.  I never posted my Banned Book list.  Basically, I started it and had trouble stopping.  I'll try to get it up in a bit, but I'm making no promises, and those that I am making, I want everyone to know that my fingers are secretly crossed behind my back.

In other words, don't expect a lot.

That being said, we can move on. 

First of all, this is freaking October already.  I repeat: October.  I don't know why that surprises me.  I mean, this is my favorite season and my favorite month for various reasons (sweaters, cooler weather, leaf/brush changes, drizzle, Halloween, pumpkins, etc.).  I love it.  At the same time, though, it means mid-terms are approaching, the deadline for my huge paper for History is drawing nearer, and snow.

Snow.  The stuff that kids pray for so they can have a snow day, the stuff drivers hate, the stuff that makes Christmas fun.  Oh yeah.  The stuff that for some reason attacks Colorado in mid to early October and that melts in my socks, making me slightly cranky.  It's been really dry this go, so maybe that means the snow is going to hold off. 

Or maybe not.  I don't know.  It's supposed to rain this week, which I'm pretty happy about, but that also means the temps (which have been unseasonably high, I've been told) are going to drop.  Maybe we'll get snow next week.  Maybe it will wait til the week after that.  You never know out here...

Second of all, school.  I am going to change my major yet again.  That's right.  So, it's still going to be an Associates of Arts, but with an emphasis in Creative Writing.  I'm so excited, because it means I can take all the lit and writing classes that I want.  And it's going to help me get a foot in the literary world.  I think I would love nothing more than to be able to be a writer for a living.  I honestly can't see myself in a normal job, whatever that is, and writing is something that comes somewhat naturally to me.  Not to mention that I love to read and write.  We shall see how it goes.

 Semester is like half way done now, too, which is nuts.  I didn't expect it to fly so fast.  I'm really enjoying this semester, which is good.  Last semester kind of sucked from a work load perspective, so this one is making up for it.  I have friends, which is nice, and I'm actually talking to people.  I think it can only go up from here.

Third of all, I still think quiting my job was one of the best things I could've done.  I don't feel the overwhelming stress that I did.  I feel healthier (even though today I feel like I have a cold coming on...), happier, and I'm getting more stuff done.  Even my family can tell the difference.  Kinda miss the income, but hey, I have loan money, so it's ok.

Fourth, and possibly last, of all, I'm in the midst of knitting projects.  That's right, dear cyber readers, I have decided to make everyone Christmas gifts this year.  I can't really talk about it (I don't know who does and doesn't read this), but it's going to be epic. Even if it feels like I'm knitting like crazy.  And all the time. Huh.  Not really a bad thing, though.  It's rather relaxing and fun.  The cool thing about it?  In the midst of presents and projects, I'm making myself a Slytherin scarf from Harry Potter.

Because I am a very big Severus Snape supporter.  But that is a blog for another time.

Unfortunately, this is where today's blog is going to end.  It's Sunday (as the title pointedly says) and I need to do some more homework for this week.

Until we meet again,