What a Freaking Day.

Seriously.

I feel like I have been hit by a mac truck and then dragged around by a cat. 

Daylight savings time is killing me.  The lack of sleep is killing me.  The anxiety causing the lack of sleep is killing me.  Mainly, I'm tired.  It's not good.  Granted, I'm usually a little tired all the time, but man.  Today I am exhausted.

But it's going to be ok.  I ended up having a massive meltdown when I got home today.  Why I'm admitting that to you guys, I don't know, but there you have it.  I think my problem is that I get so wrapped up in the trees that are about to slam me in the face that I forget to see the forest from time to time.  It's hard.  I don't know how people who are in perfect harmony with the world all the time do it.  I honestly can't do it.

I can be calm and relaxed about things for a while.  I really can.  I know that God has a plan for me and that I am doing the things I am suppossed to be doing for the time being.  I know that even behind the clouds the sun is still shining.  I know that I don't need to stress and that I can relax and let things be.

Even with all that in mind, I still have my days where the ying is not with the yang.  I still get overwhelmed.  Today just happened to be one of them.  It's the kind of day where I just want to lock myself in a tower with a stack of books and be left alone, actually.

Ah, books.  That's what I did today over my lunch period.  I read.  And you know what?  It was good.  The book was good, the ability to do what I want was good, and the lack of stress of trying to impress or work up the nerve to talk to anyone was nice.

I found out I did not win the writing contest I entered.  I'm trying to be more upset about it, but the truth is, it makes me feel like I'm on the first step to becoming a writer.  Someone once said you can't be a good writer until you have 1,000 rejection letters.

I have letter one.  It almost makes me happy.

Tonight is the Jeopardy! test.  I'm a little nervous, but mainly I'm excited.  I really want to do well.  I really want to see if I know enough trivial information.  It should be fun.

That about sums it up.  I feel like I'm about to drown in stuff: homework, family, friends, life.  Good thing I know how to tread water, I suppose.

And on that note, I will leave you.  Time to prep for my test.

~Meaghan

Jeopardy!

I just registered for the college version of Jeopardy.  I will be taking the test on March 15, 2011.  It's been a dream of mine to at least try out for Jeopardy.  Now, I'm going to.  I'm so excited!

I know that I can do well.  Even if nothing comes from it, I can at least say that I've tried.  It's very exciting and nerve wracking.  Kind of like having to give my speech next week.  So stay tuned, guys.  You never know; you may see me on TV. =D

So far, my list of things I want to do in life goes something like this:

~ Write a best-selling collection of short stories

~ Write a novel

~ Perform a stand-up comedy routine

~ Help with the adaptaion of one of my stories into film

~ Go on Jeopardy!

~ Become a best-selling author and be able to write full time

~ Meet a ton of celebrities (I have a list...)

~ Go on the Rachel Ray show

~ Go to New York City and the rest of the East coast for a trip

~ Go to the West coast for a trip

~ Eventually settle down and get married

~ Write a collection of poetry

~ Drive a convertable

And so on and so forth.

The point being that Jeopardy is on my list.  Once again, I am very excited.

So I started watching that movie "Love the Hard Way".  I was so very excited to see it - it looked fantastic.  I'm about half way done with it and I have mixed feelings about it.  The female lead, Claire, doesn't seem to get it.  She's determined to change the male lead, Jack, into something he's not.  She can't take a hint which is driving me up a wall.  She's supposed to be incredibly smart, but she just comes off as kind of whiny and dumb.  I hate characters like that.

Jack, on the other hand, seems like a well written character.  I like his snarky persona and I can see why he is the way he is.  There's also some humor from him that I enjoy.  But playing off a character like Claire is killing me; it's pretty obvious that he's not really going to change and I feel like he's kind of stringing her along.  Really, I just wish she would take a hint.  It's frustrating to watch.

The beginning started off strong, with promise.  An hour into it and it lost me.  I am going to see it through to the end, just to see if the film makers can pull it out, but so far I'm happy I didn't pay money to see it.  Granted, I am enjoying parts of it.  I really am.  But mostly the main female character is shredding me up.  She grates on me.

I'll review it again when I'm done with it.  It could pull it out.  I don't know.  It's a possibility.

My own writing is slow going.  I have ideas, but I'm hitting that rut point that comes along every once in a while.  I think what I may do is just take a notebook and go outside (it's a beautiful day here) with it.  Write whatever comes into my head, not worring about if it's good or not.  That's my problem.  I want it to be good, so when I feel like it's not, it kills me.  I'm still learning to not judge my own writing as I'm writing it.  After all, that's what the revision process is for.

I think that when I'm writing and publishing, I'm going to try to write young adult literature.  That's what most of my stuff seems to feel like - young adult, for those between maybe 17 and 21.  I don't really want to write adult stuff.  YA is more fun.  Children's books could be fun too, but I think I would go too dark too fast with those.  If you know what I mean.

I mean, some of the stuff I write now, I don't have a clue as to where it comes from.  It's crazy.

I feel like I'm catching a cold.  My mom is getting over a nasty one; my sister is exhibiting signs of it.  There's at least one person in each of my classes that is hacking up a lung.  I was so sick last semester, I want to keep it as far from me as possible.  Thank goodness for vitamin C drops.  Those things are amazing.

And that is today's blog post.  Thank you for your time.

~Meaghan