I'm going to start this blog entry by saying that my week has been rather good. For multiple reasons, including but not limited to, college, a new story idea, the fact that my current favorite band did not disband or die over the last year, and some new realizations about myself. Let's start with what made me write this blog.
So I was doing the rounds on various websites I go to on a fairly regular basis and I decided to pop over to the Bravery's website. I hadn't been there in a while,(the last time I was there, it hadn't been updated since July), so I wasn't really expecting anything. Low and behold, to my incredible surprise, it was updated!
And not only updated, I might add, but filled with a blog entry about how the guys are working on album number three! I admit that I didn't discover them until iTunes back in November, but they have quickly become one of my favorite groups since the Beatles. Granted, there are some songs I can't stand by them ("Every Word is a Knife in My Ear" and "Rites of Spring" [which I listen to sometimes because I can't decide if I like it or not] to name some of them), but the majority of the music is good. And I should know this, because I am musically inclined. (After playing the violin for almost ten years, I have some knowledge of the way things flow...) That's what I love about the Bravery - every aspect of rock is given a moment to shine. I especially love the drums and bass. Amazing. One of the best modern groups ever.
So the prospect of a new album made my day.
The next thing that I am both very excited about and equally frightened about at the same time involves college. I made my appointment to tour the campus (Fort Hays State University in Hays, Kansas) in March and after seeing the residental halls and various other things of interest on campus, I am going to be meeting with a counselor and someone from admissions to pre-enroll in classes.
I am excited because after staying home an extra year (I graduated high school from homeschool last summer), I am finally at a point in my life where I feel as though I can move out and not have to worry about whether or not I can trust myself to take care of myself. The whole reason I stayed home the extra year and got a job was that I felt like my self-injurious tendencies were still ruling me and I didn't feel like I could live away from home yet. I am pleased to say that I have been very good and haven't done anything since April of 2008. Almost a year - that feels like it deserves a pat on the back. And now I feel like I am in control of who I am and what I want; I am ready to go away from home and spread my wings a bit.
At the same time, I'm a bit nervous and/or scared. College is a really big step and I'm going to a place where I will know absolutely no one. But I think it can be a good thing and I'm not going to let fear stop me...
I find it ironic that I am excited about going to Kansas, seeing as I swore when we moved to Colorado and had to drive across Kansas from Missouri that I was never, ever going to live for any period of time in the great Sunflower state.
You can laugh now. It is rather funny.
I read a really good book the other day. It's called "The Bell Jar" by Sylvia Plath. I have not read anything else by Ms. Plath, but my dad said I would really enjoy her because I sometimes have similar sentiments. So I read "The Bell Jar" and I really liked it. At the same time, however, I was a little disturbed because she voices some of the same things I've been realizing and thinking about over the past three or four years.
Anyway, after reading this book, the story I've been tentatively working on came back into view. Sometimes a good book is all I need to stimulate my mind and get the creative juices flowing. So Brie came to life back in my head as a quiet little voice this week and I'll tell you right now that she has matured. It seems that character development has taken place in my self conciousness and because of that, the story plot has changed. I have to start from scratch, in a way, but it's very satisfying. I can't explain why - it's something you have to do for yourself to understand.
And finally, I realized that high school boys are really way too immature and that I don't want, nor need, a relationship to make me happy. I just need to be in my element and all is good. Granted, I do still want to get married and have kids some day, but I think I'm going to wait until everyone matures a bit before I get involved. And until then, I'm just going to keep on doing what I do. It was a very nice revelation and I could not be happier right now.
Oh! and I almost got hit today. I was driving with my sister and was stuck at a very busy road with no light for me to turn with. For some odd reason (maybe it was coffee I had or the fact that it was a beautiful day, I really don't know) I decided to pull out and gun my engine. Not. Smart. We almost got plowed by a giant SUV. I think I scared Katie, and I know I scared myself. Ultimately, I learned from this - always turn at a light or always make sure the coast is clear. Gunning engine = bad.
And that is your incredibly long blog for the day. I'd like to apologize if you have gotten this far - I'm a little hyper right now.
Until next time, Cyberland.
- Birdgirl90 aka Meaghan
"And I don't know where we belong/
I think we grew under a bad sun."
- The Bravery
"Bad Sun"
Friday, January 16, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
A few things I've been thinking about
So I'm trying to decide if I want to start another blog, one that is set aside just for music and book reviews. At this point in time, I think I am going to pass on it, as I have enough trouble maintaining this blog and updating regularly.
Another thing I've been thinking about is whether or not I'm going to take on another job. Currently I work part time at a Sylvan learning center (my other job finished up). If I were to take on a second job again, it would probably be at someplace like King Soopers (where I worked for a few months in 2007) or Chick-Fil-A. Chick-Fil-A has the benefits of being closed on Sundays and if I could get a schedule worked out where I was working mornings, then it would be ideal. Still, I'm hesitant to take on more than I can chew...
And finally, I'm trying to get a good night's sleep. I can not remember for the life of me the last time I slept a whole night without a nightmare or waking up at least once at some point. Sleep depravation is not good - I am one of those people who need a ton of sleep to make it through. So we will see how the next few weeks pan out.
I have to say, 2009 seems to be going fairly slowly and blurry thus far. I'll keep you posted.
Another thing I've been thinking about is whether or not I'm going to take on another job. Currently I work part time at a Sylvan learning center (my other job finished up). If I were to take on a second job again, it would probably be at someplace like King Soopers (where I worked for a few months in 2007) or Chick-Fil-A. Chick-Fil-A has the benefits of being closed on Sundays and if I could get a schedule worked out where I was working mornings, then it would be ideal. Still, I'm hesitant to take on more than I can chew...
And finally, I'm trying to get a good night's sleep. I can not remember for the life of me the last time I slept a whole night without a nightmare or waking up at least once at some point. Sleep depravation is not good - I am one of those people who need a ton of sleep to make it through. So we will see how the next few weeks pan out.
I have to say, 2009 seems to be going fairly slowly and blurry thus far. I'll keep you posted.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Eww, it snowed.
I really don't like snow. I think snow is probably my arch enemy. I know that sounds crazy, but think about it - it's cold, so you have to bundle into multiple layers; it's wet, so it makes my hair frizz; and it's slick, so the odds of me falling are higher than normal. I like that it's pretty, I will give it that. But if I have to go out into it, forget it.
I have discovered, since living in Colorado, that I like the weather in any other season than that of winter. I like it when it's like 60 or 70 degrees with a slight breeze, shade trees, and nothing but blue skies and some fluffy white clouds. I also like it when it's 50 or 60 degrees - that is fine.
But anything below 50 is not my cup of tea. And so snow is out of the question.
The humor of this situation is that I am going to go on a ski retreat that my church is doing. I, however, will not be skiing. I was told that if I wanted, I could come just to enjoy the retreat portion of it. So that is what I will be doing. While all the other crazies are out on these thin things called skis and freezing while they zip down a tree lined hill, I will be inside (hopefully by a fireplace - that would make my day) catching up on my reading. Which is the only practical thing to do when it's cold.
I shouldn't whine so much about it. At least we have heat in our apartment. Still....I'm looking forward to spring.
And that's today's blog.
I have discovered, since living in Colorado, that I like the weather in any other season than that of winter. I like it when it's like 60 or 70 degrees with a slight breeze, shade trees, and nothing but blue skies and some fluffy white clouds. I also like it when it's 50 or 60 degrees - that is fine.
But anything below 50 is not my cup of tea. And so snow is out of the question.
The humor of this situation is that I am going to go on a ski retreat that my church is doing. I, however, will not be skiing. I was told that if I wanted, I could come just to enjoy the retreat portion of it. So that is what I will be doing. While all the other crazies are out on these thin things called skis and freezing while they zip down a tree lined hill, I will be inside (hopefully by a fireplace - that would make my day) catching up on my reading. Which is the only practical thing to do when it's cold.
I shouldn't whine so much about it. At least we have heat in our apartment. Still....I'm looking forward to spring.
And that's today's blog.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I Think I've Procrastinated Enough...
The last week has been kind of crazy. Not only that, but writer's block is killing me. Fanfiction has become of utmost interest (don't laugh, it's fun) and to top it off, I've just been feeling lazy. Sorry for the boatload of excuses, cyberland people, but it's true.
So today I had to drive my dad to work and then drive myself from his job back to church. First of all, I have mixed feelings about driving. This sounds bad, but I like driving by myself more than driving with other people. I think it's because when I'm the only one in the car, I can listen to whatever I want and sing along and not have to worry about making conversation or being rude. That's just the way I am.
We got to the parking lot and dad went off to work and I got in the driver's seat. I put in my awsome CD that I wanted to listen to (the Sun side of the Bravery's CD "The Sun and the Moon Complete") only to have the stupid car spit it out. I tried multiple times to get it to play, but everytime it said there was an error and spewed it back at me. So then I hooked my iPod up to this radio adaptor I have, only to not be able to get a clear sound. Arrgh.
I ended up putting in a mixed CD that I made (I still want to make the perfect mixed CD - it's a hobby of mine) and listening to it. As I left the parking lot, the one true hate of my life began - snow flurries. I'm sorry, I hate the snow, especially if I'm driving. Luckily they did not last and the rest of my car ride was fairly uneventful. Well, except for the coyote that crossed the road in front of me and the guy behind me who basically rode my bumper for half the trip.
That was basically my day. I'm kind of tired because I power walked for almost an hour around our apartment community this afternoon. Totally worth it - I feel really good right now.
Anyway, I'll try to get back into the blogging. Have a good one!
So today I had to drive my dad to work and then drive myself from his job back to church. First of all, I have mixed feelings about driving. This sounds bad, but I like driving by myself more than driving with other people. I think it's because when I'm the only one in the car, I can listen to whatever I want and sing along and not have to worry about making conversation or being rude. That's just the way I am.
We got to the parking lot and dad went off to work and I got in the driver's seat. I put in my awsome CD that I wanted to listen to (the Sun side of the Bravery's CD "The Sun and the Moon Complete") only to have the stupid car spit it out. I tried multiple times to get it to play, but everytime it said there was an error and spewed it back at me. So then I hooked my iPod up to this radio adaptor I have, only to not be able to get a clear sound. Arrgh.
I ended up putting in a mixed CD that I made (I still want to make the perfect mixed CD - it's a hobby of mine) and listening to it. As I left the parking lot, the one true hate of my life began - snow flurries. I'm sorry, I hate the snow, especially if I'm driving. Luckily they did not last and the rest of my car ride was fairly uneventful. Well, except for the coyote that crossed the road in front of me and the guy behind me who basically rode my bumper for half the trip.
That was basically my day. I'm kind of tired because I power walked for almost an hour around our apartment community this afternoon. Totally worth it - I feel really good right now.
Anyway, I'll try to get back into the blogging. Have a good one!
Monday, December 29, 2008
I forgot I need to buy calenders...
Maybe I'm in denial that 2009 starts this week, but I seriously forgot that I need calenders. So unless I go get some within the next two days (not gonna happen), I'm going to have these three open gaps on my walls. Yes, I keep three calenders plus one planner. It gives my room style and keeps me on track.
I think I have bigger concerns, though. Like getting the room my sister and I share clean before my St. Louis friend comes next week. And finally getting my Beatles headshot hung (it's a really cool wall hanging from their later years that's in black and white and framed). So what am I doing right now?
I'm sitting in the library, using the wi-fi to blog while listening to the Bravery Radio on Pandora. Pandora, if you have never used it before, is one of the coolest things on the Internet. What you do is type in a song or group you like and it will create a "radio station" based upon that. It's a great way to get to know lots of little known groups as well as hearing the ones you love. Thanks to it, I have discovered that I really like Franz Ferdinand and other various artists. I have about 7 different stations - the Bravery, Augustana, Coldplay, I Am Ghost, the White Stripes, etc.
My sister is here somewhere; it sounds bad, but we split up. I figure that a) it's the library so nothing is going to happen, and b) I'm 18 and she's 15. We can handle ourselves fairly well. I suspect she is down looking at manga books. I was really into them when I was her age and she is following suit.
And here she is, manga books in hand. She says she's bored here right now, so I think that means that I need to wrap it up. Not sure what we are going to do, but we'll think of something.
Until next time, Cyberspace.
I think I have bigger concerns, though. Like getting the room my sister and I share clean before my St. Louis friend comes next week. And finally getting my Beatles headshot hung (it's a really cool wall hanging from their later years that's in black and white and framed). So what am I doing right now?
I'm sitting in the library, using the wi-fi to blog while listening to the Bravery Radio on Pandora. Pandora, if you have never used it before, is one of the coolest things on the Internet. What you do is type in a song or group you like and it will create a "radio station" based upon that. It's a great way to get to know lots of little known groups as well as hearing the ones you love. Thanks to it, I have discovered that I really like Franz Ferdinand and other various artists. I have about 7 different stations - the Bravery, Augustana, Coldplay, I Am Ghost, the White Stripes, etc.
My sister is here somewhere; it sounds bad, but we split up. I figure that a) it's the library so nothing is going to happen, and b) I'm 18 and she's 15. We can handle ourselves fairly well. I suspect she is down looking at manga books. I was really into them when I was her age and she is following suit.
And here she is, manga books in hand. She says she's bored here right now, so I think that means that I need to wrap it up. Not sure what we are going to do, but we'll think of something.
Until next time, Cyberspace.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
...Blah.
So, I've decided that I really want my writing to be discovered and published, but I just don't know the best way to even start. Plus, I can feel my motivation begining to slip through the cracks again. Not sure why that is, but I think I'm going to work on it.
Maybe.
The next two weeks are going to be really interesting. My friend from college is in town and I'm meeting her boyfriend Sunday. My hair is being dyed purple or black (still haven't decided, though I'm leaning towards purple) on Saturday. And on Monday my friend from St. Louis comes in to live with me for a week.
Like I said, interesting. Plus I still have to juggle work and cleaning my room and everything else that I have to do. I kinda want to pull my hair and scream, and at the same time I want to laugh hysterically. Actually, sleep sounds really good. I keep having these nightmares about one of my friends, which I think must mean I miss him more than I realized even though he hasn't been gone that long.
Pathetic to the highest degree.
Anyway, I think the point of this blog was to tell everyone that I may not be around to writing as much the next two weeks. This week I might at night, but I can almost guarantee that next week it will be dry as dust. Haha, cliche.
I'll write again later; I have to go fight the mess in my room.
Maybe.
The next two weeks are going to be really interesting. My friend from college is in town and I'm meeting her boyfriend Sunday. My hair is being dyed purple or black (still haven't decided, though I'm leaning towards purple) on Saturday. And on Monday my friend from St. Louis comes in to live with me for a week.
Like I said, interesting. Plus I still have to juggle work and cleaning my room and everything else that I have to do. I kinda want to pull my hair and scream, and at the same time I want to laugh hysterically. Actually, sleep sounds really good. I keep having these nightmares about one of my friends, which I think must mean I miss him more than I realized even though he hasn't been gone that long.
Pathetic to the highest degree.
Anyway, I think the point of this blog was to tell everyone that I may not be around to writing as much the next two weeks. This week I might at night, but I can almost guarantee that next week it will be dry as dust. Haha, cliche.
I'll write again later; I have to go fight the mess in my room.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
My "N" Key is going out...
So it's Christmas day and I have discovered something new - the "n" key on my laptop keyboard seems to be on the brink of going out. It's rather annoying because I use the "n" key quiet frequently and now I have to hit it just right or else it won't go. Blah.
I survived my day of crazyness yesterday. I woke up yesterday morning after having a bad night's sleep (I think I dreamed about spiders because I was blogging about them before bed, but I don't really remember...) and proceded to have a nervous breakdown on the way to work. Which kinda sucks, because I'm one of those people who hate crying in front of other people, especially if they are related to me or know me (like my parents, who were in the front of the car); luckily my face was not overly red at work and I survived my morning.
But then I got attacked by this big, heavy box at work. Basically I had to move this huge stack of boxes from one area to another, which isn't that big of a deal. Except for when the boxes are stacked above your head and you assume they are going to be light. I ended up dropping the box (it was really heavy and I had no grip on it whatsoever) on my head slightly and then, like in slow motion, it scratched my arms as I tried to catch it. I heard it meet the ground and realized that there was glass inside of the box. I'm pretty sure I broke whatever was in the box, but the lady in the room I was in said not to worry about it because they would just blame the UPS guy.
Sorry UPS guy. I am working on learning to be more careful.
The rest of yesterday seems to blur. I know there were three church services I attended, one that I got to watch (the puppets did a great job as did the youth bells and choir) and two that I performed in (Epic Fail the first time on the bells, much better the second service). I came home and ate onion rings from Burger King and went to bed. Apparently, onion rings from Burger King affect sleep patterns cause I had the weirdest dream last night...
Today has been a pretty good day. I got the cutest pink bunny slippers! I'm wearing them with my argile socks right now and think they are the spiffiest things since silver chains. And I got fingerless gloves, which means I can play my violin in the cold without my fingers freezing off. I've also been stuffing my face with food that is not the healthiest in any sense. I'll start my diet after the new year...
In fact, I think the only thing that is not going well today is that we still don't know why my dad's car died on the highway last week. And my "n" key is driving me batty.
I hope all you people in cyberspace have enjoyed this week of lots of updates and that you are enjoying whatever holiday you celebrate. I wanna say that I'm still going to be updating like there is no tomorrow, but I have no guarentees.
Until then, happy holidays.
I survived my day of crazyness yesterday. I woke up yesterday morning after having a bad night's sleep (I think I dreamed about spiders because I was blogging about them before bed, but I don't really remember...) and proceded to have a nervous breakdown on the way to work. Which kinda sucks, because I'm one of those people who hate crying in front of other people, especially if they are related to me or know me (like my parents, who were in the front of the car); luckily my face was not overly red at work and I survived my morning.
But then I got attacked by this big, heavy box at work. Basically I had to move this huge stack of boxes from one area to another, which isn't that big of a deal. Except for when the boxes are stacked above your head and you assume they are going to be light. I ended up dropping the box (it was really heavy and I had no grip on it whatsoever) on my head slightly and then, like in slow motion, it scratched my arms as I tried to catch it. I heard it meet the ground and realized that there was glass inside of the box. I'm pretty sure I broke whatever was in the box, but the lady in the room I was in said not to worry about it because they would just blame the UPS guy.
Sorry UPS guy. I am working on learning to be more careful.
The rest of yesterday seems to blur. I know there were three church services I attended, one that I got to watch (the puppets did a great job as did the youth bells and choir) and two that I performed in (Epic Fail the first time on the bells, much better the second service). I came home and ate onion rings from Burger King and went to bed. Apparently, onion rings from Burger King affect sleep patterns cause I had the weirdest dream last night...
Today has been a pretty good day. I got the cutest pink bunny slippers! I'm wearing them with my argile socks right now and think they are the spiffiest things since silver chains. And I got fingerless gloves, which means I can play my violin in the cold without my fingers freezing off. I've also been stuffing my face with food that is not the healthiest in any sense. I'll start my diet after the new year...
In fact, I think the only thing that is not going well today is that we still don't know why my dad's car died on the highway last week. And my "n" key is driving me batty.
I hope all you people in cyberspace have enjoyed this week of lots of updates and that you are enjoying whatever holiday you celebrate. I wanna say that I'm still going to be updating like there is no tomorrow, but I have no guarentees.
Until then, happy holidays.
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